CANON♥

so, i really love my new canon powershot SX120 IS. nothing too fancy. nothing too basic. that is all...BTW im still looking for a 35mm camera :o]...and i know the info on the pic is in spanish :o]

Embrace the Martian: I Come in Peace+ Bearing Gifts=Some Art for you to Digest + Fart

from the bottom of my heart:

BANANAS



JUNGLE FEVER




here are some recent pieces of mine. i've been painting and creating a lot lately. i'm tired of surviving and ready to prevail. i do not by any means consider myself a proffesional. yes, my artwork has sold  in the past and people generally appreciate my work but most of all it is something i truly enjoy. i've been blessed with great hand/eye coordination and a natural ability to "feel" colors. so why not make something of it.

i really believe GOD gives us talents+ they are a major piece in the part we play in society.

who we are genuinely, creates a natural balance in the world. so with no apologies (except maybe  to my mum) i am me. trust me, you need weirdos like me...just know that i come in peace♥

haaaaa-aaaahh-wwwaaaaa-aaaaah

so i'm really in love with this song right now. even though im very much anti neosoul ( i feel that it is nothing but emo music for black thirty somethings). this song however, walks a fine line. i'll call it R&B. im american so im just more comfortable sticking artists with labels and boxes. #shoutout to sir mawell for my #shoutout @ the beginning of the video. notice how he belts "haaaaahhhh-wwwwaaaaaaah-ahhhhhhh" ;o] enjoy!



weeeerk out ms. washington for the sex scene. i met her once while she was doing a college tour campaign for president obama. she seemed really down to earth...common eat your heart out ♥

My Grass is HELLA Green ♥

this is a piece i recently painted. it's acrylic on canvas. it reads: "maybe if i really tried with all of my heart, then i could make a brand new start". it's my first painting since moving back to CALIFORNIA, the bay area to be exact. these days i feel like i've got homecourt advantge. check how green my grass is. no need for the other side♥

the lyrics used in the piece are from a song by Girls called Lust For Life. they're a local group from my home city of SAN FRANCISCO. they embody the spirit of the city. here's the video for your viewing pleasure:

So I Put a New Hole in My Nose

about three months ago i pierced my nose for the first time. i hated it. the poor thing looked like a booger on the side of my nose. plus it made me look like a trash bucket. i was not feeling it at ALL!...the problem was that i tried to control the situation. you see, i originally wated a hoop so i told homeboy making the housecall (looongstory) to pierce my nose a little lower than traditional because i didn't want the hoop taking over my entire nostril. it was too low and stuck out on the widest part of my nose. i lied and said i liked it. 20 minutes later it was out and i was sending a text politely asking for a redo. ::giggles:: :o)

fast forward to last thursday. homeboy made another housecall and this time i promised to embrace my inner hippie and just go with the flow. low and behold homie pierces the damned thing in the same spot! explaining that because i wanted a hoop it would have to be lower...blah blah blah....so this is was the end result:

bump that fake ass diamond stud...i won't be satisfied until i get my hoop!!!

Mustang Sally ♥s That Old White Lady

so, i've decided to puchase one of these. 1979 mercedes 500sl. it reminds me of a car that a rich old white woman would drive on the weekend. deep down i feel that i am just a rich old white woman + i'd like to live her weekend life everyday.

or one of these. 1965 ford mustang.

that is all. if you'd like to make me happy. surprise me with one. i love surprises ;o]

i know he loves me

but its not the way i want him to.

why can't he embrace me? accept me? tonight is the sunday of my labor day weekend. i should've been in L.A. i should've been exploring the baldwin hills w/ the homie @jenniferpauline or tanning in marina del ray w/ @shashayee. instead im in the bay, on this extended stay. trying to make a few $$$ before i head back to the "A".

tonight i went to the shattuck downlow in berkeley, ca. as usual i was approached by @ least four men who only had intentions of using my body. after three hennesey and cokes he hit the stage. my ex that is. i love him still. +always will. he. my experience with him was one like no other. innocent puppy love. hours on the phone. telling stories of home. sharing jokes + foreign family grief. he spoke jamaican patois. i spoke krio. yet we were always on the same page. we met when i was 17. it was an exclusive magazine launch party. i had to have him. i approached him. mistake #1. i was the one that initiated the chase therefore becoming the pursuer.

and so it would be. he had only been in the U.S. 5 months when we met. he only struck interest to make up for the lack of mine. we were good friends, yes. lovers, no. the sex was quite cold. wasted experiences. trying to hold on. to the laughter. the uncertainty, he told me he loved me. i know he did. but it wasnt the way i deserved.

so here we are 6 years later. still hitting up the same spots. running in the same circles. he still gets territorial over me. in a way that screams, "i don't want you but i don't want anyone else to have you." the comradary is still there and always will be. i love him too.

♥ haiku